Daddy & I didn't have sex last night & not only was I okay with it last night, I just realized that I'm okay with it today. I hardly even thought about it until right now! I'm NEVER okay with not having sex with Him daily! 

I think I am finally becoming more secure in O/our relationship & just His words & touch is helping with that. I usually need sex to be reassured in a relationship but I think I can really trust that He is not going to leave me. 

Being Mommy & Little:
Update: 4~11~13

Oh the joys of parenthood & having roommates. First of all, you can't do much during the day because you have children & it's a little weird to go into the bedroom in the middle of the day to "take a nap" when you show no signs of being sleepy. Let me explain. 

Daddy & I don't get much DD/lg time so W/we mostly have vanilla sex aside from a little choking & control. Today, while the boys took their nap & our roommates were out at the store, Daddy decided that I needed my spankings He owed me from before W/we lived together (see March 22nd).

I got spankings I didn't like then, Daddy decided to play with me & make me cum on His hand [as He knows I LOVE doing] while He gave me spankings I did like  I was lying face down on O/our bed when O/our roommate called. (Interruption #1). When He got off the phone, W/we decided to save playtime for later. I kissed Daddy & pulled Him down on the bed & asked Him nicely to fuck me quick. He pulled out His bag of goodies & cuffed my wrists together. As soon as He did that, W/we heard the doorknob to O/our bedroom jiggle. Boys were up from their nap. 

Daddy had to uncuff me & W/we had to postpone playtime until later at that point. Oh the joys of parenthood! I just know that tonights playtime will be INTENSE & I can't wait! 

A couple days ago, Daddy chased me around the house with His collar & I was unsure of how I felt about wearing it but, after a lot of soul searching & talking with other littles, I finally agreed. I waited a couple days to see if Daddy would actually put it on me without me reminding Him but I eventually had to remind Him. It's not my permanent one. Daddy is special ordering mine but it's still pretty & pink & I love it 

Omg where do I even begin!

Last night, I got exactly what I wanted. Daddy & I were laying in bed having a talk about how frustrated I was. I told Him that it had been bothering me that He was being un-dominating & I wanted Him to be more rough with me & how W/we had talked about collaring me but it hadn't happened yet & I was upset. I was telling him that there is more to love-making than intercourse & asked Him what He really wanted. He then proceeded to show me. . .

He grabbed me by the throat &, of course, I was grinning ear to ear. THIS is what I wanted! He growled in my ear that my body was His to use whenever & wherever He wanted & how I don't determine when or where that is, He does. I was not to initiate anything, I had to let Him do it. Of course, my dominant side wasn't having this & I had to beat her down my submissive side & tell myself that I asked for this life & I WAS going to submit to Him. He let go of my throat & ran His hand down my body after I complied & answered Him correctly with a "Yes, Daddy"

The second time He grabbed my throat, there was no smile. It was genuine fear. I knew in the back of my mind that He wouldn't damage me but I had to keep telling myself over & over in my head that He wouldn't. I don't remember all of what He said this time but, I know how I felt. I felt pure & genuine fear. I was scared! Almost in tears, I was able to choke out another "Yes, Daddy" when he asked me if I understood. He ran His hand back down my body again & told me He loved me. 

At that point, He moved so He was on top of me. I looked at Him with real fear in my eyes & all I could think was "what is He going to do now?" He positioned Himself on top of me & grabbed my throat again, lighter this time. I came almost immediately as soon as He entered me. I had never felt ecstacy like this before. Between the sensation of Him inside me & His hand on my throat, I didn't know what I was enjoying more. He pulled out & started to finger me & moved His hand from my throat to my right breast, which sent me through another wave of ecstacy. I asked Him if I could cum & I could see that He was thinking about it. I started to dry up & I think He realized that so He told me yes & I soaked O/our bed. As I was cumming, He kept fingering me & even had to forcefully push me back down on the bed by my breast. 

He re-entered me & again, I almost came as soon as He entered me. I let Him stroke a few times before I asked to cum again & immediately this time, He told me yes. I came in waves! I soaked Daddy, the bed, my ass & almost, my bunny. He kept His hand on my breast for a few more minutes before moving His hands to either side of me & sending me through wave after wave of pleasure. I asked if I could flip over & He growled a no just as He came. We collapsed in a heap. It was amazing, to say the least. 

Maybe tonight, I will be able to get Daddy to take me from behind like I have been wanting 

Daddy's touch feels different today, I don't know why. W/we ran to Lowe's & in the car, the first time He grabbed my hand, the pressure of His arm on mine felt different than it has since W/we met. I think I'm starting to give in more to my subby side & it feels good! 

I love that He is so willing to take pictures with me too. It makes me feel awesome that He is willing to share such a special thing with me without even knowing what it means to me  I don't think I'm going to tell Him what it means to me. I want Him to keep doing it lol