I was just reading about somebody's first decent into subspace & realized I have never experienced that. I can't wait to be with EW in two weeks so I can know what that truly feels like. I keep imagining this euphoria & total loss of control & how good it is going to feel. Like I said, I have never experienced that so it is just something I imagine in my head. 

I'm a little anxious that I won't be a good sub for EW & that he will have to do more coaching than he wants to. I know as a Dom, that is his position but, I still want to just make him happy & be the perfect Little. I know there is no such thing as perfect & I don't expect to get it right the first time. EW will teach me.

I honestly can't wait to lose my self control & have EW completely in charge