A couple days ago, Daddy chased me around the house with His collar & I was unsure of how I felt about wearing it but, after a lot of soul searching & talking with other littles, I finally agreed. I waited a couple days to see if Daddy would actually put it on me without me reminding Him but I eventually had to remind Him. It's not my permanent one. Daddy is special ordering mine but it's still pretty & pink & I love it 

Omg where do I even begin!

Last night, I got exactly what I wanted. Daddy & I were laying in bed having a talk about how frustrated I was. I told Him that it had been bothering me that He was being un-dominating & I wanted Him to be more rough with me & how W/we had talked about collaring me but it hadn't happened yet & I was upset. I was telling him that there is more to love-making than intercourse & asked Him what He really wanted. He then proceeded to show me. . .

He grabbed me by the throat &, of course, I was grinning ear to ear. THIS is what I wanted! He growled in my ear that my body was His to use whenever & wherever He wanted & how I don't determine when or where that is, He does. I was not to initiate anything, I had to let Him do it. Of course, my dominant side wasn't having this & I had to beat her down my submissive side & tell myself that I asked for this life & I WAS going to submit to Him. He let go of my throat & ran His hand down my body after I complied & answered Him correctly with a "Yes, Daddy"

The second time He grabbed my throat, there was no smile. It was genuine fear. I knew in the back of my mind that He wouldn't damage me but I had to keep telling myself over & over in my head that He wouldn't. I don't remember all of what He said this time but, I know how I felt. I felt pure & genuine fear. I was scared! Almost in tears, I was able to choke out another "Yes, Daddy" when he asked me if I understood. He ran His hand back down my body again & told me He loved me. 

At that point, He moved so He was on top of me. I looked at Him with real fear in my eyes & all I could think was "what is He going to do now?" He positioned Himself on top of me & grabbed my throat again, lighter this time. I came almost immediately as soon as He entered me. I had never felt ecstacy like this before. Between the sensation of Him inside me & His hand on my throat, I didn't know what I was enjoying more. He pulled out & started to finger me & moved His hand from my throat to my right breast, which sent me through another wave of ecstacy. I asked Him if I could cum & I could see that He was thinking about it. I started to dry up & I think He realized that so He told me yes & I soaked O/our bed. As I was cumming, He kept fingering me & even had to forcefully push me back down on the bed by my breast. 

He re-entered me & again, I almost came as soon as He entered me. I let Him stroke a few times before I asked to cum again & immediately this time, He told me yes. I came in waves! I soaked Daddy, the bed, my ass & almost, my bunny. He kept His hand on my breast for a few more minutes before moving His hands to either side of me & sending me through wave after wave of pleasure. I asked if I could flip over & He growled a no just as He came. We collapsed in a heap. It was amazing, to say the least. 

Maybe tonight, I will be able to get Daddy to take me from behind like I have been wanting 

Daddy's touch feels different today, I don't know why. W/we ran to Lowe's & in the car, the first time He grabbed my hand, the pressure of His arm on mine felt different than it has since W/we met. I think I'm starting to give in more to my subby side & it feels good! 

I love that He is so willing to take pictures with me too. It makes me feel awesome that He is willing to share such a special thing with me without even knowing what it means to me  I don't think I'm going to tell Him what it means to me. I want Him to keep doing it lol

Day 30: Post Pictures of Myself, Full Nude, Front and Back.

Day 29: Second day with Daddy

We head back to Virginia today. I have to say I'm a little sad. I'm going to miss my friends at school.

The sex in itself is phenomenol but He is kind of lacking in the foreplay department. This morning, I was going to wake Him up with a blowjob & I was trying to play with Him to get Him a little harder & He rolled over & turned His back to me. I got out of bed because I don't like cuddling with backs. It makes me feel less important to Him.

I got a little bit of force out of Him last night but hardly. I even expressed how much I liked it when He did it but He stopped quick. He forced my legs off of Him & apart but after that, the force stopped. He grabbed my hands & I had to move my arm so that my wrist was in His grip instead of my fingers. That didn't seem to do much either.  He ran his hand down my body & across my throat & it turned me on but when I expressed that to Him, it didn't even seem like He heard me. "Daddy" just seems to get Him off so I try not to say it too much. I had to beg Him to finish pleasing me after He was finished last night.

I want my legs to shake, I want to see bruises on my wrists & anywhere else, I want GOOD oral sex. I'm not expecting anything anymore. Honetly, what has He given me to expect?